Part 5: Eternal False Hope...

Feeling lost. A wave of abandonment, the weight of confusion.

Why did one look, one smile, one prayer, give me a universe of hope, false hope, one moment of eternal lasting hope.

A forever longing hope, a hope so wrenchingly painful, that an all so true smile masks the tears.

All because you, an anomaly in the world of evil, gave me one look, one smile, one prayer. You gave me a universe of hope, false hope, one moment of eternal lasting hope, a hope that you are to blame for.

But who the hell am I to blame you? For it was I who dared to venture the forbidden path, the path of her and I, the path of us, the path of you and I, the path of us.

An imaginary world, where for some insane ludicrous reason, I fulfilled your world, you fulfilled my world, we were the world…

I now forever hang onto the Idea, the idea of you and I. I now forever hang onto the hope, the hope you so innocently poisoned me with, the hope of you and I.

I hate you for it, for how can I not. Yet I love you for it, for now I live with an everlasting hope…

~ J.S.Nel

22/03/2022