Part 6: Dear God...

Dear God,

I feel like a lead weight has been cut off my chest, a dead burden laid to rest, yet the questions lay in a perfect nest, every dead burden alive as the next, while I try to connect the dots of her and I in my head.

Why God? Why did you put me in this lane? Why all the unanswered questions and the pain? I know you didn’t cut me out for power and fame, which is the only question I have the answer to for the person with my name. I trust you God, which is why the “why God?” is a dangerous game.

Yet again, I find myself asking… Why God? Why do I feel so alive, so fulfilled, so content, at peace? Yet I feel so lost, so confused, so broken, restless without cease...

A noose of emotions lay in my mind and make me feel weak, a noose of emotions that choke me in my sleep, a noose of emotions that drown me in defeat, yet I feel victorious because I trust you, you pick me up and put me on my feet, your endless Grace and peace make me complete.

Why God? It’s you from the very start, you know me and my heart, you know my every problem, my story and its parts…

Dear God, I trust you, your story for me, my heart, and all its broken parts.

Dear God, I trust you.

27/04/2022